You're my mood .

I think I love you because I only think about you
I keep on smiling 'cause of you
when I close my eyes, I see you.
Over and over , I long for your kiss
And when I don't talk to you for a day , I already start to miss

I think i need you more than a crying baby need his mother . :X
My heart aches when I talk to you
My heart aches when I don’t hear from you
My heart aches when I long for you
Have i really fallen for you ? I don't know ..

Quiz .
1. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- Air stewardess . (:

2. Have you ever fallen in love?
- Of course . (:

3. Do you like older guys/ girls?
- Huh ? Age gap you meant ?

4. Who are the most important people to you?
- *Ahem , Brothers / sisters . :D

5. What/Who are you thinking of right now?
- Thinking of him . :X

6. What is your favourite colour?
- Green / Pink .

7. Are you seriously in love now?
-I don't know ..

8. Would you cry for the one you love?
- OF COURSE ! :P

9. Have you ever failed in life?
- Definitely.

10. What is your full name?
- Cynthia Lim JiaYing

11.Do you like your first name?
- Yeapxzxz

12.How long have you liked the person you currently like?
- Waiting for him since 14 dec'10 .

13.Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
- Np . ^^

14.Did you cry today?
- Not yet .

15.What are you doing this morning at 8am?
-Just woke up.

16.What are you doing an hour ago?
- Computer-ing

17.What are you currently doing?
- Still computer-ing . :X

18.Who last texted you a msg?
- Alvin

19.Have you told anybody that you love them today?
-Yeapp

20.Do you miss anyone now?
- Definitely. (:

21.Any plans for tomorrow?
- No idea yet . :/

22.Is there anyone you want to be with now?
- Yes . <:

23.Name someone who make you smile today.
- YAP FENGWEI . (:

24.Name a friend whose name stats with 'Z'.
- ZongHan

25.Which of your friend stays closest to you?
- Minyi . :D

26.Do you prefer to call or to text?
- Call. (:

27.Was yesterday better than today?
- Yeapcxz

28.Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
- NO !

29.Are you mad about anything now?
- yeappzx

30.Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
-Yeaaa (:

31.Last person you visited in a hospital?
- My uncle .

32.When is your last and second last hug?
- 22nd April'10 . To JOLYN LIM JIAYING . :D

33.What does the last text msg in your inbox says?
- Lol ok .

34.How do you feel about your life now?
- Sucks ttm

35.Do you hate anyone?
- Yes, i think?

36.Last person you called?
- Jacinda mumo

37.Who usually sent you the most texts in a month?
- Fengwei .

38.Is your room messy now?
- Definitely

39.What are you currently doing?
- Rotting .

You leave me breathless ,

Had a freakout and tiring week. D:
Studies , peers pressure , nonsensical people finding troubles for me , misunderstandings , cold wars , quarrels and etc . What's going on in my life ?!
Nothing's going smoothly .

-Nonsensical trouble makers .
Seriously , you guys hate me or not , i don't give a F***ing damn okay . But don't even try to attempt to mess up my life , i keep quiet is not because i don't know but i chose to ignore childish people like you guys . Won't you ever grow up for goodness sake ?
Don't go over my limits alright , i don't have much patience , you can test me if you want but don't blame and say i didn't warn you okay . -.-"

-Studies
I'm trying my best to concentrate . I'm beginning to study already . Miracle isn't ? (:

-Cold wars ; Quarrels ; Misunderstandings
I don't know why all these goes on and on .. Made my point and cleared the misunderstandings already . But why are you still avoid me ? i don't know what are you thinking ..
I cherish our friendship okay even if you don't , i do .
i love you as - A FRIEND . Merely a friend !
Treating you good doesn't meant I LIKE YOU okay - for goodness sake !

Peer pressure
i don't know what to say ...

Advertising time :
WOOHOO ! It's the advertising time ! (:

- Jarrod ( Chocolate ) has cut his thick hair ! Then now he got sexy hair with his cute face ! (: He's so famous among the sec1 GIRLS . HAHAHAAHA !
He got a kiddie signature smile that is cute ttm! :D
Of course , because everyone eats chocolate ! (:
This is how he became famous too ! (: * Claps ~

( crapping around ! ^^ )
- Cynthia's defination of my chocolate , Jarrod Chin ! (:

don't mess up with me okay

Happy birthday to Phaqi , Miaojun . (: * for this week .
Clarify time .
Ok , i don't like *ahem N . He's a friend to me . A good one . F-R-I-E-N-D! Mark that word in your mind . It's so tiring when it's so stress at studies already and yet , i have to face this type of nonsense . Sabotage people liking another person very fun ? Or gossiping about others very interesting ? Ever wonder if someone did that to you , will you be angry ??! Put yourself in my shoes , will you like if someone bombed you saying you like that person and after that , that person avoided you ?!
Don't do what you don't want others to do you .

i'm so tired of this kinda crap , what : liking him and crushing on him . -.- Won't you guys grow up ? If you think that phase " love you " to friends meant i love him/her , then i can ONLY describe you in 2words , childish and retarded . Be a grown up manxzx . Don't embarrass yourself okay . Nonsense stuffs you do , wont make you grow up .

i just called to say , i love you .

Pictures do the talking . I'm tired .
All i can say is , i had fun ! (:

I need you more than you need her .

I don't know how to describe my feelings towards you .
I know , i treat you different from others . In a extra caring way .
People can say , " you have a crush on him " .
People can tell me , " it's obvious . "
But i , myself , don't even know if i've let go my past , to let go someone .
And instead , i'm trying to grab you now .

You're sweet . Cute .
You make me smile and laugh tho matter i'm happy or sad . You're like my 开心果 .
I love the way you entertain me . (:
I admit i'm jealous when girls get close to you .
You're like a magnet attracting the pins . * girls .
Tsktsk..

Don't ask me " are you in love with him ? " , i don't know also .
I think i'm crushing on you.
I think i'm in love with you . That's all i can say
I THINK !

But i'm no longer confident to go in one more r/s .

Loving you was my favorite mistake.

Hell-o ! <:
Ultra shag yaw .
Life kinda sucks for 2010 . Will there be a better tomorrow ? I hope so .

- I hate my phone , can't upload pictures ! It's so overdue already . Tsktsk ..
- Chatting with Felyna supergirl and Byvan girlfr . (;
- Looking forward to The MUSICAL EXTRAVAGANZA ! :DD
- Waiting for Junhong brother to call me . Hmm..
- Wondering if he is back in S'pore already ???? O:
- In love with the song , Breathless and 危险的念头 ！
- I think i need him NOW . D:

-Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. -I like that . (: But i can't achieve that .
- True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.

Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
I'm still learning to accept that .. I`m going to smile and make you think I`m happy, I`m going to laugh, so you don`t see me cry, I`m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me- I`m going to smile.

I need you 24/7

Currently online with 4active conversations with Felyna , Junhong , Fengwei , Derrick , Byvan ! (: Nothing to do ! Love you guys ! Prepare to ton ! :D

Love is blind yaw .

There was a blind girl who hated herself just
because she's blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her.

She said that if she could only see the world, she
would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and
then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.

Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the
world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her
boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote
a letter to her saying.
"Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human brain changes when the status
changed.

Only few remember what life was before, and who's
always been there even in the most painful situations.

Endless tears .

Saddened . D: My heart's broken . No one can mend that hollow heart of mine except him . I miss you honey . D: But i know , time will not go back for us ...

STORY TIME ! :D
SAD STORY .

IT'S 7TH GRADE..

I stared at the girl next to me... She was my so called "best friend"... I stared at her... Long, silky hair... And I wished she was mine... But she didn't notice me like that... I knew it... After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before... And I handed them to her... She said "thanks"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...

IT'S JUNIOR YEAR..

My phone rang... On the other end it was her... She was in tears... Mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart... She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone... So I did... As I sat next to her on the sofa... I stared at her soft eyes... Wishing she was mine... After 2 hours... I Drew Barrymore movie... And 3 bags of chips... She decided to go to sleep... She looked at me.. Said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...

IT'S SENIOR YEAR..

The day before prom... She walked to my locker... "My date is sick" she said... He's not going to go... Well... I didn't have a date and in 7th grade... We made a promise that if neiter of us had dates... We'd go together just as "best friends"... And so we did...

IT'S PROM NIGHT..

After everything was over with... I was standing at her front door step... I stared at her ... She smiled at me... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me like that... And I know it... Then she said "I had the best time... Thanks!"... And she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wanted her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...

IT'S GRADUATION DAY..

A day passed... And then a week... And then a month... Before I could blink... It was graduation day... I watched her... Perfect body... Floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me that way... And I know it... Before everyone went home... She came to me in her smock and hat... And cried as I hugged her... Then she lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend"... "Thanks!"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her.. I wanted to know that I wanted to be more than "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy... And I don't know why...

IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER..

Now I sit in the pews of the church... A church that she is getting married in now... I watched her say "I do" an drive off to her new life... Married to another man... I wanted her to be mine... But she didn't see me like that... And I knew it... But before she drove away... She came to me and said "You came!... Thanks!"... And she kissed me on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wantd her to know that I didn't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...

YEARS PASSED..

I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend"... At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years... This is what it said... "I stare at him... Wishing he was mine... But he doesn't notice me like that... And I know it... I wanted to tell him... I wanted him to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love him but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me"... I wish I did too... I thought to myself and I cried...
rest in peace my Love..

ONE MORE...

One night a guy and girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed and that it was time to move on.
A silent tear slid down his cheek as... See More he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy.
Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out and read it.
" Without your love, I would die."

I don't trust love ,

Hai .
Been thinking for half an hour on what to post . :/
Just describe how i'm feeling these days .

I FEEL .....

Happy because you brought my smiles by just smiling and laughing .

Sad because the one who brought you laughter is another girl .

Frustrated because you don't know what's going on with your girl and have to ask me .

Naive because i thought that just as long as she makes you happy , i'll be happy too .

Jealous when you get close to her .

Sickening when you side her when you don't understand what's going on .

like Silting , but it just won't hurt because my heart hurts more than the pain on my hands .

Heartbroken because I LOVE YOU but i can't say .

Disappointed because you let me down so many times .

Affected when you ignore me at times , my entire day mood ruined .

Moody when you are biased to her .

tho you don't love me already and you let me down ample times but i just like the way you are now because of one simple reason - i love you .